Unknown Fields

You have to give up the life you have to get to the life that is waiting for you.
~James Hillman, Psychologist.

I found that quote while reading my blog feeds. And I just felt like sharing that one life lesson. Don't let fears of the unknown stop you from going for what you feel is just right. You never know what's at the other side of the door till you dare go through it. Moments in our life are scary indeed, but we have to go through them, and if we believe and have some kind of faith, as small as it might be, even on your own convictions, things do get better. It sounds cliché, but after every storm, there is always a rainbow, somewhere, even if you don't see it. Hard times make us stronger, and only after we go through that can we only treasure what we have after. Otherwise we would ignore its value.

I've given up on many things in my life out of fear, especially of the unknown. But enough was enough, and as hard as it was, I did dare to venture into it. And so far, the path is bright and full of blossoming flowers, eternally spring, or at least a really long one. I don't regret the path I took before, but I do wonder sometimes what would have been if I have taken the one I really wanted. Past is past, but I really wished to tell people to ignore that fear, that is indeed there and just go for it. Show them who is in control, you or your fears?

Everyone wonders if the grass is greener on the other side. But few dare to try and have a look. Some do, and they just find out that theirs was greener. But just them having tried, is something not to be ashamed of. I'm not saying to be proud of, because it depends on situations. But… in a way, it all comes to you really knowing the value of what you hold. Is it important as you want to stay with it, or you really feel you should move on? I decided quiet some time now to cross that field; find out if the grass is greener; I actually decided that even if it wasn't, I would at least try to make flowers grow on it. So I brought some seeds with me. I couldn't see well, but there was this small seed in my hand, the rest in my pocket, and even if it was too dark for me to see the grass, I could feel it was soft. I could feel the grass beneath my toes gentle and soft and just wonderful. And I could feel the sweet breeze, and I wondered, "Could I stay just for a bit?"

I felt great yet afraid. And with fear I let that small seed drop to the ground. I couldn't find it because of how dark it was. Such an unknown place yet it felt like home. I felt sorry looking back, yet happy I decided to go and see, I didn't knew why, I just felt happy. And then, as the night went on I started to feel at ease. And at times I would feel the breeze reaching out to me, and sometimes none at all and I would feel afraid and confused and alone. And then I saw the moon in the sky, suddenly starting to shine in its full light. The moon, little by little illuminated the field, just to reveal the most wonderful and magical place I could have been in.

As the moon set in and the sun came up, it revealed a little plant coming out of the grass. Small, very small, so delicate, I was afraid to damage it. So I back up and let it be, let it grow. In the mean while I went to explore the deepest parts of the forests and all around the field. Some places I could not see well, some places are still yet unknown to me. But what I see it's still beautiful. Just when I was tired of so much walking, I sat restless in a spot, near the plant, looking at it from afar. And I fell asleep with the sweet warm breeze caressing me, making me feel welcome, and the sweet smell of the fresh grass below me. When I woke up, the rest of the seeds in my pockets fell on the grown, and I was surrounded by beautiful flowers. The little plant was taller and it got taller as the days went on. Now, it's a tree, and what a beautiful tree it is!

As afraid as I was of leaving behind what I left, just to explore such a place that I even couldn't see at all, I will never regret. This is home, and I am glad. And trees keep growing, and this one seems to be getting stronger and taller; reaching for the sun and the moon at night. The flowers fill the air with all the sweetness it can have; and I dance happily all around the field. The butterflies seem to love the flowers too, as they won't go away. They just keep playing around with me. I'm not afraid anymore, I did jump after all into the deep dark night, there is no way back. And I don't intend to go back anyway. This is my place now. Thank you.

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PS: This is how you change the world. Found that article ^^ makes me feel happy of such a world like this.